Kanye's face looks almost attractive.

What a dream

it doesnt need to be stated how emotional yesterday was for people all around this country. im glad that we were all able to come together peacefully.

SICKEST SKATEBOARD EVERRR

its been a while....

So when I heard US-placers it was instant love and I played it on repeat continuously. I have found its replacement.



i'm a little late, but love is love.

jumping on the kid cudi bandwagon a little late but its cool.

Ecology of Love

I love so much of what Pharrell does, but this may be one of my faves. Plus I love the remixed Sade

Introspection

Things that I have learned about myself today:

-I have intimacy issues with boys for a reason
1. Partly physical. Will have to get that check out
2. Partly emotional
a. I have always viewed sex and sexual acts as bad. I think that I've always believed that engaging in anything sexual, be it with someone else or alone, is inappropriate. To me sexual urges are things to be controlled or conquered, not fulfilled. So engaging in anything is a weakness and thus inappropriate. I know in my mind that this logic is so wrong. But its what I feel in my heart of hearts
b. Boys are completely sexual animals. For me, an issue has been that if a guy wants to do anything with me, he wants to do so simply because he wants my body. Nothing else. When a guy looks at me in the midst of something or when I look into his eyes during I sense hunger. Like, I'm an animal and I will tear you to pieces. If I had mind power I could make this into something that was a turn on but I can't. I hate that look and its burned into the back of my brain when I recall sessions of intimacy. And I hate how objectifying I think it is.
c. I am insecure. I think that I'm a pretty decent catch. I think that I have a good personality and am capable of keeping someone entertained, if not interested. But even though I believe these things about myself, I doubt that anyone else does. And that is a problem that extends beyond sexuality. But in keeping with the outline, I think that the fact that I can't accept that I might be a cool person, leads me to believe that any physical involvement with the other kind has to be on basis that what I have to offer is the bod and not the awesome personality.
3. History

- My PMS symptoms: Irritability. Right before I start my period I get really irritable and each time I can never figure out why until I ponder over this uncomfortable feeling and I'm like, "oh, right! i'm a girl."

"Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't."

Erica Jong

Christmas Wish List

I've been meaning to start doing this:
I'm gonna start posting wish list items so I can remember. Today I'm checking out Alloy and seeing some pretty nice and affordable buys


Minnetonka Moccasins


Jet Boots in Chestnut



Colin Stuart Studded Booties


Colin Stuart Studded Ring Booties

goal setting

"Most people rust out due to lack of challenge. Few people rust out due to overuse."

oooh so fineee

Favorite picture. Courtesy of Concrete Loop

I love astrology

It always seems true

"They're great conversationalists because they're the keepers of so much knowledge, gossip, strange factoids, etc"
sooo me. especially the strange factoids

SAY IT AINT SO

Pharrell has allegedly fathered a child... that isnt mine...
Unacceptable...
However, this was said about him and Vashtie too sooo.... I dont know.
If it is true, congrats to him and girl-who's-not-me.
[SOURCE]

Politcking

I can appreciate a good political cartoon. Here's the article to accompany it: 10 Misconceptions about Chinese Investment in Africa

Technology is really scary

People sometimes ask questions or supply theories about the world ending and technology and I think is killing us and I'm really scared.
I read this article in the New York Times about a drug that puts you to sleep and quickly kills you. But its peaceful... Great. Its meant for pets and in smaller doses for seizures but is beginning to be used for euthanasia. I understand that these people can chose their way to go, but what really scares me is the drug getting into the hands of people who will use it for not-so-personal purposes. Drugs like this are easily accessible for anyone who really wants it and thats a scary thought.

Also my co-worker showed me predictions made by Brazilian psychic Jucelino and while he seems like a nutjob who is mostly wrong, this one prediction struck a chord and kinda terrifies me:

2011: The research on the treatment of some cancers will be completed, but a
new life-threatening virus will appear. People who are infected will die after
only approx. 4 hours of coming into contact with the virus.

This appears to be possible. Not so soon, but in a further (?) future. I'm pretty sure the human race will die from viruses. It seems incredibly likely.